I been back in school for about a week now and I'm loving it. I was nervous before I came, I didn't know if making friends would be easy or hard. I was worried about being completely alone and having to take care of myself. I was worried about having a single room. I was worried about walking to classes and being out of breath. I was worried about what kind of questions people would ask. But all of my fears are slowly going away. When I walk to class, I take my time and if I need sit down and breathe. Having a single room is still a pro/con for me. It gets quite lonely down by myself but I made friends who come down to my room for movie nights and I go up to there room to study. People don't ask me questions, I tell them I have a single room and they ask and I tell them medical reasons, they don't question it, which makes me comfortable opening up to them. I'm making new friends and it's really awesome. I do miss home
"You and I we're friends from outer space
Afraid to let go
The only two who understood this place
And as far as we know
This ain't goodbye
Oh no, this ain't goodbye
This ain't goodbye
Oh no, this ain't goodbye" <3
I'm finally opening up to you guys. This afternoon we lost my grandfather, he's been sick for awhile and that's why I been so busy lately. I been wanting to write something about him for so long but if I wrote it down it meant that what was happening was really happening. I have never been good at facing reality, but somehow and someway I have to. My grandparents are kind of like my second parents, does that make sense? They have been with me through every step. My grandfather was the one who picked out my name along side my father. He bagged me one night at the hosipital, and was there o He was the one who was by my side when I caught my first fish camping and was ready to cave in when I begged to bring my sunfish home on our two hour ride home. He was the one who taught me how to fly fish. He's the one who contacted Hilary Duff people and told them my story. I received a package on my tenth birthday from her along with a purse that she used. He was the one who contacted the NY Giants after I refused to leave training camp when my feeding tube fell out. I received a package from them with a jersey, signed pictures and a letter from the organization. My grandfather was the smarted person I know. He would answer a question on Jeopardy that nobody knew and he would go "I bet you wonder how I knew that question, huh?" My grandfather was one of the most important people in my life. I dreamt that he would be at my wedding and would make my children laugh like the way he made me laugh.
Hii guys, sorry I havent posted in a while, these last couple days have been crazy! So let me get to it, this is my first post from college! Can you believe it, I can't. A part of me feels like I'm at summer camp, once classes hit, I'm pretty sure that feeling will go away quickly. I have told you before that making friends is hard for me but here its nothing like high school. I have met people and hung out with them and on a good note, I haven't eaten a meal by myself (: I have a single room because of my oxygen. I didn't think it was fair to who ever would be living with me with the concentrator on throughout the noise, as you may know it makes a noise throughout the night when it is turned on. As of now, I do wish i had a roommate because I see people walking around and they are with there roommates making friends with them, I'm hoping this will past and I will be forever grateful that I don't have a roommate. Classes start tomorrow, on labor day isn't that crazy! I'm actually excited for them! I have three classes tomorrow which start at 10:00 and my last one ends at 2:50, I say its a pretty easy day! I shall let you guys know tomorrow on how they are!
P.S: i will post pictures of my room tomorrow (: