With graduation, my 18th birthday, hopefully getting my license, college right around the corner soon I have been feeling on top of the world. For once in my life I felt my age, I haven't gotten ask if I wanted a kid menu or sat in the back seat of the car in forever. Recently when we were in Boston, we went to this amazing restaurant two nights in a row. The first night everything was amazing, but the second night really hit me hard. The hostess asked if I wanted a kid menu, which we said no to but then when I received my drink, I got a kiddie cup. Honestly I don't remember the last time I got a kiddie cup. I got kiddie cups and kids menu, a lot longer then most kids, but it eventually stopped, yes I do get asked if I want a kids menu but we simply reply no. But receiving a kiddie cup really hit me hard, I actually had tears. Your probably thinking why cry over getting a kiddie cup (to be clear I wasn't throwing a tantra tantrum but tears did flow). Most people would want a kiddie cup again but for me it hurts. I'm eighteen years old, heading off to college and receiving a kiddie cups just reminds me that I'm not like everyone else, I will always be shorter then my peers and will always be different. It just tells me that I will always have to prove to people that I am who I am, but its not a bad thing. The climb may take longer then most but I will get to the top.
P.S: My fourteen year old sister got a kiddie cup too, and she didn't remember t
One thing that I am pretty sure that I never mentioned to you guys is that I have a hearing aid. It was noticed when I was in kindergarten that I had a hard time hearing. I don't know exactly what causes my hard of hearing, but I will find out for you guys! Since I have tiny ears, I don't have a hearing aid that goes into my ears but instead it is inside a headband! At first I had the hearing aide on a metal band, but that ended up denting my head, so we came up with an idea of putting it inside a headband! It may look weird that I wear practically the same headband everyday but once you realize that it is a headband its pretty cool!
Today when I went out to the mail, I saw that we got a catalogue of the American Girl. If you aren't similar with American Girl, they are a company that sells dolls, for little girls. But what is so great about it is that they celebrate girls and what they can be. Some of the girls have historical past, they have dolls who the girls can pick out and create there own story for them. Of course I had two of them Kailey and Marisol. I haven't played with my two dolls, Kailey and Marisol, and my bitty baby in several years, I still like to look and see what they have and wishing that they had this when I was kid. Today I found something that I really wish they had when I was a little girl, they have a hearing aid for the dolls. When I saw this it touched me, I had overcome wearing a hearing aid awhile ago, but if I was a little girl this would comfort me. It shows that being different is okay and theres nothing wrong with it!
Oh, darling, don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up Just stay this little
Oh, darling, don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
It could stay this simple
It Happens to everyone, birthdays come once a day every year. When we were five years old you waited the whole year for your birthday, you have a party with all your friends, family at Chuckie Cheese, ice skating rink, or the park. A table is filled with boxes wrapped up in cool wrapping paper and your peeking to figure out whats inside, seeing if its the brand new toy you want. You blow out the number of candles that symbolize how old you are turning. Unfourtanely that feeling somehow slowly fades away. Birthdays become just another day, don't get me wrong, I wait all year for my birthday and I can hardly sleep that night before but its not the same anymore like it was when I was five. I celebrated my 18th birthday when my family and the ones who love me the most and I am having a birthday party next week, but its not the same anymore. I usually have a feeling of what I want, like money, now instead of ripping of the wrapping paper I find myself reading cards instead. Don't get me wrong I love money, but the excitement that you don't know what you were getting is what I miss.
Also I am a summer baby, when I was younger I was jealous of all the kids who had a birthday during the school year because they got to bring in cupcakes and celebrate it in the classroom. As I got older I realized that having a birthday in the summer is a pretty good thing, I got to go on some amazing trips to my birthday and I never had to go to school. But getting birthday parties together was never easy, it was always difficult getting all of my friends together because they would be away on vacation. Today I actually got to see my classmates, since I went to awhich was pretty amazing.
For some reason a birthday to me doesn't mean getting money, or gifts, I find myself thinking about my past and how doctors said I would never make this age. Turning eighteen is a huge accomplishment, but to me its like winning the olympics, I made it to a place where nobody ever thought I would make it to.
"God bless America. Land that
I love. Stand beside her, and guide her, Through the night with the light from
above. From the mountains, to the prairies, To the ocean, white with foam. God
bless America! My home, sweet home, God bless America! My home, sweet
home." Author: Irving Berlin
Hapy Fourth of July everyone!